It's nearly time to board the plane and jet back off again to Uganda.

I've had people call me brave recently. They say I'm brave going to Uganda on my own as a single girl, where I don't know anyone for 2 months. 

I've had people say that I am doing amazing things in following God's calling to Uganda to work with Special needs kids. That it is going to be hard and that I am strong for going.

I've had people say that they wouldn't be able to do what I am doing.

I'd just like to say that there is nothing brave or strong or amazing that I am doing.

I'm only following God's calling, just like you would. Yours might be to visit an elderly person next door to give them some company and just sit and talk with them for hours. It might be to show the love of Jesus to whoever you sit next to in your office at work. It might be to offer to look after a tired mum's kid so she can go to her ladies group one week in peace. We are all the same, and I am certainly no greater then you are. 

Uganda has captured my heart and some days my heart hurts from missing it so bad, however, some days I find it hard going to church on my own, knowing that I'm not going to know everyone there and people might judge me or not talk to me. I find it hard having the motivation to sit down and write another essay. But I know that is where isGod is calling me right now. He wants me here and it won't be easy. Uganda seems like an escape at times. Escapes aren't brave or strong or amazing, they are only a sign of weakness. Running back to something that is easier, certainly does not make me strong or brave.

It's been so long!

It's been so long since I've wrote on here! But it's been even longer since I was in Uganda, and I'm missing it so much! 

I love & miss the beautiful faces which light up whenever you were with them

I love & miss the generosity of the people

I love & miss the red dirt which covers you the minute you enter out

I love & miss the mosquito net which covers you & protect you through your sweet dreams

I love & miss the millions of hands which tug and pull on you every spare second of the day

I love & miss the piki and car journeys which swerve a crazy amount to miss the huge pot-holes

I love & miss walking through Namatala and seeing one hundred small faces calling Aunty Abbiiiiii and running up to me with arm open wide

I love & miss spending all evening doing nothing but being with my new friends and our Lord together
I love & miss being challenged by the crazy questions and request our new friends would ask
I love & miss rising out of bed ready for a new day, full of enthusiasm and joy
I love & miss the way that stickers are only meant for your face
I love & miss teaching a class and having 30 charming voices reply back at me
I love & miss so much I couldn't possibly list everything!

*Stickers -- even the outlines are only for you face*

*My sponsored girl -- such a beautiful and clever girly*

Seriously my heart aches when I think about the joyful spirits I met and love!

But hopefully I'll be back there soo soon! 

Trust and His will be done

xox

He always fulfils

Oh my goodness! I don't even have the capable words of describing how incredibly amazing Uganda was! The 5 weeks flew by so quickly, and it was so sad to leave. But it was the best time of my life and God revealed so much to me and taught me so much while I was there. 

{Check out Child of Hope Outreach's website to see the awesome work they do for Africa's neediest.}

For the most of the weeks we were basically acting as teaching assistants, and for parts were the main teacher, as well as playing with the kids, church with the children and even managing to take some of them swimming in the nearby pool!

I can't even begin to describe the whole of our trip, because I wouldn't even know where to begin. But the people where the most loveliest ones I've ever met, we would walk past their house going to visit a friend and they would clean a stool used as a table for us to rest. 

They pile our laps high with mango's, chip's, maize or anything else they had going. Their hearts are full of the spirit of Christ. They share what they have, even if they don't have any for themselves.  

And the children, oh the children. They are the joy-filled, beautiful children you could ever meet. All I heard the whole time walking or riding through the town was "Aunty Abbi", and when you look behind you have a crowd of faces running up to you, waiting to be lifting up high, hugged and squeezed.

Sitting on the piki (a taxi motorbike) on the last day and driving away from the school, was possibly one of the hardest things I have ever had to do in my short life so far.

For certain I know that God will return me there one day, and if it was up to me that day would be now, but I'll have to wait for God's plan and timing, but I pray and ask that it won't be to far away. 

I made so many friends who are the beautiful people ever, and I just want to run into class and get swapped by my small friends who never cease to amaze me with their loving hearts full of our Jesus Christ. They show him every day, and every minute better than I do!

* They radiate His love and grace *

* Sitting on the steps reading His word *

Trust and His will be done

xox

So soon!

In only 3 days we will be heading off the the airport to begin our journey to Uganda.

All our bags are beginning to fill up, our packing it on it's way.

I'm so excited to see the things that God will place in our view while we are out there. I cannot wait to experience the joyfulness of the people living in Namatala, but most of all I can't wait to serve the beautiful children who work so hard, with love, hope and kindness.

To be able to see their expressions, when we lovingly provide them with the clothes, books and other gifts, which people have so kindly donated to us. 

To eat the food that over here would simply be thrown in the bin, yet there it is life saving and oh so scrummy... though I have squeezed in some peanut butter for old times.

To be able to breathe in the red dirt through the air, and to never stay clean throughout the day. 

All these things would normally make me say No Way, but not for Uganda, my heart melts for that place.

Trust and His will be done

xox

35 days

Looking at all the beautiful faces that I will be with in just just over a months time is so exciting. I can't wait to be there! Saying that it's only really a month away is crazy!! With all the work and things which are going on at the moment which I've been concentrating on means that Uganda, right now, doesn't have my full attention. I've still got so much to do, but it's going so fast.

Looking back at memories from last years trip, and seeing all those beautiful faces, it's sad that I can't go back to see them all again, but I know that there are so many other faces of all the beautiful children who are just as gorgeous. 

To get on that plane on the 23rd of June and to arrive in Uganda, ready to serve the children and people there with all my heart. To show them Jesus's love, hope and faith that they are worth every thing, just as much as me and you. They are cherished and loved and gorgeous.

Trust and his will be done

xox

Easter

During the Easter holidays, many of my friends and their families went away to a Christian conference, called Spring Harvest. This place is meant to be amazing as I've been told my many of the people who have been there. When they went off, and I felt like I had been left in the dark to just sit around and wait for them to get back, so I could be part of the fun!

But then I thought, wait, I don't want to just go to Spring Harvest just become my friends are there. I want to go there because I an be with God. But, I can do that here! Yes there may be a crazy atmosphere with loads of others there. But I can encounter god here, at my home, just as much as at a christian conference.

He died for me, he shed tears for me, he rose again for, and he loved me and continues to love me. forever. Amen

My god is awesome and when he wants me to know something then he will let me know and tell me, I don't have to be somewhere crazy!

For me the most beautiful place for me to talk to my Lord, is a beach about an hour away from my home.

It gives me time to think, and to just be. 

It's peaceful and joyful surrounded by his creation.

I need to take another trip down there soon!! But for now I will meet and spend time with my God here <3

Trust and His will be done

xxx

Where it all started

Last year I went on a mission trip for 2 weeks to Uganda, where we worked in a orphanage and primary schools and helped build a new pharmacy for the local medical clinic. Working in the orphanage and primary schools I learnt so much! 

I had an idea of what I was going to expect when I was out there, but when actually out there, it was soo different!! As soon as we stepped of our bus which had arrived at the orphanage, the little children and toddlers came running towards us and honestly, as lovely as it was to give all the babies a big hug, it was heart wrenching. I didn't want to be able to give these kids hugs, and i didn't want them to be desperate to have our attention and love. I wish that i didn't have to go on that mission trip and i wish that i was stuck at home with friends.

Why is it that there is so much devastating poverty in our world today?! One story that stuck out for me, was a 6 month baby girl at the orphanage. When she was born at a hospital with her mother, she was kidnapped and taken away from the hospital where her loving mum was. The police found the kidnapper, but they couldn't find the mum, so they put this little baby girl into a nearby orphanage. There could have been a loving beautiful mummy for this gorgeous girly, but now, she will be a orphan forever, with such a hard future ahead of her.

Last night at my church youth group, my leader was talking about igniting your passion up again, no matter  where it is because NOTHING is impossible for God.  What God is calling you to do, you should go and do it, because NOTHING is to big for god.  This really inspired me to just trust in God, and I am waiting at the moment to see where God wants to take me and what he has instore.

"Heal my heart and make it clean 

Open up my eyes to the things unseen, 


Show me how to love like you have loved me


Break my heart from what breaks yours


Everything I am for your kingdoms cause


As I go from nothing to

Eternity"

Whatever he wants me do, I will go, because by the grace of God, he can do anything.

Trust and his will be done

xxx